On Not Being with Candace

I don't want to go into much detail in this post, as I don't like talking about relationships on my blog, but seeing as Candace was the focal point of my life for the entirety of this blog up to this point, it only makes sense to let you know that we broke up this past Sunday.

Although it's really not anyone's business why we broke up (unless you are one of my close friends, of course), let's suffice it to say that it was a friendly and generally mutual breakup.

That said, it has still been hard on both of us. For example, tonight I went by myself to see a friend's band play at a venue downtown, and in addition to being very lonely there not knowing anyone and not having my usual going-out companion with me by my side, the venue was just down the street from her apartment, and of course I had to pass it both coming and going. It was tempting to just stop at her place to give her a hug and tell her that she means so much to me, but that's not what either of us needs right now. Perhaps down the road we'll be at a place in our lives when we're ready to start again as a couple, but right now I think we both need some time to grow as individuals.

Let it be known though that nothing bad happened between us, that I still love Candace greatly, and that I will always care for her. The key is to use this lonely time as an impetus to go out there and start taking care of myself better than I did for the past year, most importantly in terms of making friendships and building up my music career. It was a great year with Candace, and I can only hope to ever be so lucky again, even if that means us getting back together at a later time.